I listen to what I want when Im alone. I dont listen to music anywhere but in the car and home, and im usually alone.
however,
when I have people around which is rare, some of my music has no lyrics, more instrumental so im good.
i always thought this was a double standard amongst witnesses.
what exactly is acceptable to jw's when it comes to music?
an example is prince.
I listen to what I want when Im alone. I dont listen to music anywhere but in the car and home, and im usually alone.
however,
when I have people around which is rare, some of my music has no lyrics, more instrumental so im good.
been out now for 10 yrs but life is a mess.
starting to think its because i have no spiritual compass.
why shouldn't i consider going back?.
why is your life going down hill? apart from worship, we have control of the rest of our time.
what would sitting in a kingdom hall three hours a week, do to make it better other than to have human beings around you?
its like a divorce. being married to the Org all these years then realizing we were misled by our own flawed reasoning,
and by much persuation,
at first you might feel free of the burden, and you are, but then we question ourselves, we doubt we are doing the right thing
guilt sets in, we feel like we let people down, and then we go back to the same trials we left. thus placing ourselves under obligation again.
many times we would rather be captive, knowing what to expect, than to be free and have to think on our own and make choices.
that is genuine maturity, when we can make our own wise choices using good solid information that we have learned.
its never easy. but reading in search of christain freedom, helped a lot.
but now, always having in the back of my mind why there are no other records of all these fabulous things Jesus supposedly did, other than he few bible books
Im on the road to discovering the lack of proof that a jesus ever exsisted so this is my curiosity now. when i have the time.
i just learned (from a post on a facebook jw recovery forum) that breast milk contains white blood cells [see link below for confirmation].
so, when nursing, an infant ingests its mother's white blood cells for nourishment.
furthermore, i have known jw mothers who would nurse the infant of another mother when that mother was temporarily indisposed.
L. O. L !! so they are still observing the law of moses? and what about all the old levitical laws?
here I THOUGHT that was done with?
i know this topic has been spoken about but i havent seen an official thead about it.
so theists why did god create these and why does he co tinue to allow them?
are they from the talking snake, satan?.
my mom and my aunt says satan has creative powers and those are his creatures.....
just, absorb it for a while, lol
http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-england-28978655.
a five-year-old boy with a brain tumour has been taken without consent from hospital by his parents, sparking a major police hunt for the family.. ashya king was taken from southampton general hospital and is now believed to be in france with his parents and six siblings.. police said he needs constant medical care and there are "serious concerns" for his life if he is not found today.. brett king, 51, and naghemeh king, 45 removed him from the ward on thursday.. ashya's father was pictured taking him from the hospital"everyone is sending their love now.
we love you so much and we want to see you very soon and i love you so much and can't wait to see you.".
did i miss why they took him out?
i haven't really been on here in like, a year.
my stbx introduced me to this site and then a whole buch of life happened and i just sort of never had time for forums.
but here i am at 3am, another sleepless night, and i feel like i am simply lost.
shattered reality, has your husband , like mine, made subtle hints for you to leave on your own? so you take the blame for leaving, and not he? Im curious.
this is what mine does to me. I havent given him a reason to not love me, I compare myself to the character Brie, on desperate housewives, in that im a domestic angel, and loyal wife, and have dinner every day. but wish i was someplace else with someone else.
but when the very few times we get into a relationship discussion, he will say, well if you dont like it leave. knowing full well i have no where to go. so he does what he wants.
mine was the one who cheated on me two years ago, and we got back together when he made these promses to me, that have not come yet and never will.
on the way out made an observation ,you gave yor husband an open door to explore .... as did I . and mine has said this to me , ' well, if you think you can find someone else go ahead but Im not interested in anyone.
I think my husband wishes Id leave. he will never admit it, he just drinks and sleeps upstairs, and keeps very busy.
http://www.jw-archive.org/post/96026163083/would-taking-the-ice-bucket-challenge-raising-monee.
one of my jw family members was told this was 'worldly'
lol
in my nearly 60 years in the religion, although i "studied" with a good number, i cannot think of any who could lay the blame at my door for being in the religion today.. one lad possibly might, i studied with him briefly as he was trying to get off drugs, he then moved away, and then married a "sister" a few years later, and is still in, but i doubt he would blame me, i hope not.. of the others i studied with none are still in, the last i heard of one of them, a weirdo kid, now weirdo man, was when he was arrested for "flashing" in a local spot frquented by doggers etc.
i guess i was a useless "tutor".
as it happens, that is one of the things i am proud to be a failure at, getting people to join a cult.. i always tried to not do proper r.v's, and never suggested a "study" to anyone, but some, like weirdo, were shoved my way by elders who didn't want the work themselves.. how many are you guilty of getting in to the cult ?.
in my 35 yrs in as an adult, not a one. knocking on mostly empty doors here in rural pa, couldnt even keep my own two children intrested, cant blame them
never being good enough for the other kids who parents had higher incomes.
now having higher income, still doesnt matter. no one has time for freinds, after all,
every availiable morsel of spare time we find we were expected to sacrifice to the org.
sigh, what dum dums we were.
i haven't really been on here in like, a year.
my stbx introduced me to this site and then a whole buch of life happened and i just sort of never had time for forums.
but here i am at 3am, another sleepless night, and i feel like i am simply lost.
WOW, for a minuet there, I thought i was reading a post about my own life experience! Oh God Im not alone, but sad that so many feel this loneliness.
staying married out of duty, never falling in love, just thrown together from circumstance, growing distant , feeling like an obligation,
being nothing more than room mates,
then 'facebook' interference, then seperating then getting back together, [out of fear ] then all the promises from one side, to be 'different' as if that ever would happen,
having it go no place, the alchohol in place of a relationship. [ the alchohol, my dear, is how people cope with regret all the 'what ifs', and missed opportunities.]
all too familiar, and outright depressing to have to deal with. especially when your my age at 52.
so what do we all do now? all of us that are in marraiges out of a sense of duty and loyalty that have no emotional backing?
thats what i want to know.
IS there a way to meet people that we might have things in common with, and actually fall in love with at our age? number one problem,
being x witnesses we have such different and higher standards or expectations and moral compasses,
maybe we would feel a lot of availiable people are beneath us.
and many of us remain married for financial reasons, or family reasons, and arent divorced on paper. but we can go if we had someplace to go. and we are so fearful of making yet another mistake were paralized, and do nothing but remain miserable rather than move out of he comfort zone, which is where I am.
so,
where are the ways to meet [or married in name only, wishing to be available ] people in the are we live ?
who is going to go on some dating website and risk talking to people who might have never had a moral bone in thier body? or opportunists? lookig to prey on women who were submissive to thier husbands so they can exploit them again.
or who has a finacially secure background [not wealthy just not broke] how do we know?
so we just sit here not knowing what to do first, and let our life pass us by and wish for our night in shining armor to come swoop us up?
yes where are all the couples who wish they could trade spouses? lol
maybe someone shoud start a web site and call it x 'prince and princesses' , lol.
i've never been called for jury duty and i'm not yet registered to vote, although i'm hoping to get that done this month.
i know someone who within a few months of registering to vote was called for jury duty.
i've read some articles that said voter records 'used' to be used to call on people but that was a thing of the past.
i forgot all about registering to vote! but honeslty im too dumb and nieve to make a judgment on someones life. i wouldnt trust me to be in a jury.