Hi Julia, wow. I checked out some of your paintings. You are very talented.
Maybe the reason you did not do great at your other job is that your heart isn't in it. Your passion is art. My wish for you is that you can some how make a living doing something you love.
Your art is worthwhile, and a noble legitimate pursuit, not just a hobby.
Good for you for actively getting help. The world will be a poorer place without your artistry. Your work deserves a spot light.
Miss.Fit