God this question's been bugging me for days. Why aren't I still there?
This is my answer: I found the whole universal sovereignty test thing so deeply deeply unfair. I knew a lot of "worldly" people, who seemed decent and honest, really good people. I couldn't accept any longer that when they shut the door on the JWs who called on them, they were actually deliberately choosing to follow debil-da-satan. It didn't make any sense. I reasoned to myself that, if God (for I believed in him then) wanted to test his sovereignty, he probably could have found a better way of doing it than sending out a bunch of grinning idiots on Sunday mornings.
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