JW for 20 years, disassociated my self rather than wait to be DF'd. Worked hard at being a good JW, but was made to feel that not doing enough, spent years being made to feel guilty. Couldn't cope with having to shun my children, I have four, one disfellowshipped, one disassociated like me, one who decided she didn't want 'the truth'. The youngest is still a JW and shuns me, which breaks my heart. I would love to hear from anyone who feels the same. I was in St Ives, Cambs cong, also Huntingdon, St Neots and Rotherham. My biography is a long one (isn't everyone's) so won't bore you with it! Anyone out there want to talk? contact me.