Hi Neil and welcome,
I venture to say that your healing won't be complete till you have read "Crisis of Conscience"
It will produce the final carthasis you need.
That did it for most of us here.
Crisis of Conscience (Fourth edition, Revised and Updated - May, 2002)
by Raymond Franz (with topical and Scriptural indexes),
420 pages, hardbound $19.95; paperback $15.95.
(U.S. Postage: $1.85, Foreign postage: $6.00)
A former member of the Governing Body of Jehovah's Witnesses gives a unique insight into the authority structure of that religion. The book allows the reader a view of the decision-making sessions of a religion's inner council, and the powerful, sometimes dramatic, impact their decisions have on people's lives. Although initially written in 1983, the book reveals a distinctive and basic pattern, a pattern which, as the updated information in the third edition shows, continues essentially unchanged. Rather than reducing the book's relevancy, the passage of time serves to manifest the validity of the evidence offered and the currency of the issues and principles involved.
Then when you have read that, you might like to read his second book.
In Search of Christian Freedomby Raymond Franz, 736 pages, hardbound $21.95; paperback $17.95. Freedom is crucial to genuine Christianity. How erosion of Christian freedom began in the early centuries, how it can and does occur today, and the means for resisting the invasion of personal conscience and thought; a sequel to Crisis of Conscience. Discusses teachings of organizational loyalty, door-to-door activity, disfellowshipping, blood, and many others. http://www.commentarypress.com/booklist-eng.html BTW the only interest I have in promoting these books is that I want you and everyone else to benefit. IMany libraries have them, or they will get them for you. yesidid | ||||||||||