Aye minimus, freedom is to be prefered. Being conditioned to having every moment of ones existence come under the scrutiny of yourself as well as everyone else is one incredible mind _ _ _ k that I would wish on my enemies, even the worst of them, if you want to subjugate any one with having to constantly question, can I watch this movie?, can I listen to this copy of Earth Wind & Fire, despite the apparent, alledged demonic symbolism shown on the cover?
"Are we being entertained by what Jehovah hates? ", was a consistent theme in talks, study articles, as well as parts on the assemblies.
How the hell was anyone supposed to watch, read, listen too, anything not associated with Theocratic interest? It was all evil, according to them if you think about it, long and hard enuff'.
Jehovah was depicted as hating anything not of the organization. So I threw away my music, buried it in the river, on several occasions, I listened only to Kingdom Melodies, as that was the music of the pure language that I should've been listening to alone.
I drowned myself in listening to audio tapes of the Bible spoken in word. Though I actually enjoyed that aspect of serving, but every single thing came down to Jehovah hating everything not witness oriented. I was expected to not only follow in suite, but because I was being taught by those who were regarded as higher up on the food chain regarding their spiritual capacity, I was almost expected to be like my teachers.
Here's one that's escaped my notice regarding the tyranical rulership that was once the norm in the Kingdom Hall. I oftentimes would never even consider being an understudy of anyone less than an Elder. And the brother that I would study with, on one particular occasion would make me feel so less than if it was I was not following along in his footsteps, " A student is not great as his teacher, " he would tell me, as well as had some kinda' scriptural backup to point out to me how it was I was lacking in progress because of not meeting up with what were his standards. Luke 6:40 was always placed upon me as proof that I was moving too slow, that I needed to do more, move it! move it! , move it!
Luke 6:40 A pupil is not above his teacher, but everyone that is perfectly instructed will be like his teacher.
Is this even a proper reflection of scripture, or has this been adjusted to give even more creedence to the JW philosophy? Perfectly ?,.... anyway....
Freedom minimus has come finally, and yes at a hefty price, but what would anyone count as being of worth, their remaining in the dark ? To remain in the dark is to be non-existent, to not be enlightened as to ones true self, un-authentic.