You didn't say if this Baptized JW was active or not.
I wasn't active, but stuck in a very alcoholic violent abusive marriage to that good JW man. I had to get out but didn't believe in divorce. Afterall, JW's don't get divorced. I thought of murder. I truly did! But as I thought it through, no way was I going to spend my life in jail because of him.
So one day - my 25th birthday - I played russian roulette with a 44 magnum (Smith and Wesson, 4" black barrel, walnut hand grips). I did the whole ceremony - one bullet, spin the cylender, point and.............click. Hmm. Point........click. I looked down the barrel, then pointed to the ceiling and.....................BANG! I'm still hard-of-hearing in my right ear.
It scared the life back into me. I began working on myself. Lost weight. Did better at work. Finally realized I could support myself, because all of my money went for rent and untilities and food, all his money went for savings and alcohol.
Since my dad was an elder on the JC, I heard about suicide attempts. One elder visit, the woman went to the bathroom, ran the bathwater, got in and slit her wrists - all while they were there. They were able to save her, but she was DF'd.
I remember hearing about other suicides while growing up.
My brother-in-law from my first marriage (that good JW man) finally after years and years of depression and added guilt because he couldn't be the "good" husband his JW wife thought he should be, put the barrel of his shotgon in his mouth and pulled the trigger. His 15 year old son hear the bang and found him.
I don't think the suicide rate is much different than society in general. However, mental illness, depression, etc., are so looked down upon by JW's that it's more difficult to seek help when needed.
HUG AND LOVE YOURSELVES!
brenda