I was looking back thru some old journals that I kept back in the days before coming to the truth about " The Truth ". It reflected a very terrorized and frightened individual who had absolutely no hope for the future, in this world or the next. Guilt ridden and fearful. It was a sad commentary on a life that had been spent chasing dreams, only to find myself in the middle of a nightmare.
Now that several years have past, and I found a new reality here, as well an arsenal of information about the history of the orginization, having had the opportunity to examine the society from the inside out has reduced to a great degree, the fear I once had in questioning the absolute authority that they placed over their converts. Problems that exist in the churches are many the same in the Hall, and in some cases even more so. Wife abuse, alcoholism, teenage pregnancy and several other ills are plagues that exist in the homes of many a Jehovah's Witness.
I don't suffer the same pangs of distress over my decision to leave the orginization, and I no longer believe they are the only ones who have the most correct information regarding the interpretation of the scriptures.
I've received a wealth of scriptural knowledge from ministries and churches from so called " Christendom ", that have been able to help me acquire a broader understanding of the Jehovah.