Dear Mrs. Horton:
NOdenial and I have been gone for the weekend....so I am just now viewing JWD.
I am so sorry you are feeling so "low", I can tell you are in an extreme amount of pain and I really do "feel bad for you".
I think a lot of posters are not responding for the main reason already stated: "They haven't been thru what you are going thru and don't know what to say"....It doesn't mean they don't care. so please don't be offended.
Both NOdenial and I went thru separation and divorce.
It is the most painful thing I have ever endured. It is like going thru a death.....that is exactly what it feels like. (I had already lost both my parents and I can honestly say, the divorce was more painful)
I am glad to hear you are getting counseling..........but if this counselor is not helping, find one that will.
Please go to the doctor and inform him/her of your emotional health.
I waited about 6 weeks before I went to the doctor and wished I would have went sooner. It was very embarrassing for me to go and share something so private, that my husband left me and cheated on me repeatedly. I couldn't sleep, eat, and I don't know how I went to work. I became anorexic very fast.
The meds helped!!!
I didn't have the money for a counselor.......I wished I would have, because it would have given better coping tools. I didn't live near any of my family..........
I was still a very active JW, I had a couple sisters and one couple that would let me pour my heart out. One had been thru a divorce and she seemed most helpful.
Where I worked, there were many women that had went thru a divorce and I found them most helpful.
If you look in your local paper there could be a divorce support group. I didn't think if that when I went thru my divorce, I notice they have a divorce support group where I live now. That could be of great help for you to.
As Xandria stated, there are many stages of separation and divorce. You may be angry now, but next week intensely sad....The emotions can keep switching back and forth.
Please feel free to pm me........I would be very happy to help you if I can.