Okay, would it be a total conflict of interests to post on this thread?
ROTFL!!! I grew up around the "power hitters" as it were, so I didn't even realize I was meant to be intimidated by these men until a few years ago. I guess because of my ignorance (yeah, let's call it that) I saw a different side of these guys. In some ways, it kind of held me in the Org even after I started to get disillusioned. You see, I saw the normal, human side of some of the top guys... sitting chatting over coffee and dessert, stopping by their homes/rooms, attending little social events, going up to their private offices for a visit when at Bethel. I really had no clue about "how the other half lives." They probably can't see it themselves... probably a bit like the upper class in the last century rarely saw the servants as real people.
Of course, all of that changed when I got older and didn't have the "in" of being ********'s daughter. I still wasn't intimidated by them, I didn't know I was supposed to be, but certainly wasn't an "insider" anymore. It's a strange feeling.