Well I spoke with my Mom this past week. She made sure to remind me that the Memorial was coming. She pressed me for a promise to attend. I told her I'm not really interested in that anymore. This launched another argument about the 'troof'. She ask "what happened to you, you used to be so strong in the truth but now you don't do anything with it". I told her that the 'troof' relies too heavily on an organization and that you end up following what others tell you rather than making your own decisions. She said God always had an organization. I asked her "who was the organization 500 years ago?" She couldn't say. I said that there are so many voices (religions) competing for your attention. All of them feel they are right and all of them think you should follow them. I told her I intend to "wait on Jehovah" to clarify things before I trust the Society's men. I also mentioned the Scripture in Psalms 146:3 - "do not put your trust in .... men, in whom no salvation belongs". She replied that I was being "arrogant" for expecting God to deal personally with me. I replied that "I see too much wrong with 'The Society' to believe that God is directing things". For instance God wouldn't allow an innocent person to die because of a mistake he made. Yet JW's have died from refusing organ transplants and vaccinations, which were taught to be wrong, but later changed. She said humans make mistakes and you can't blame God for human imperfections. I replied "EXACTLY!" It was humans who made those mistakes - not God, which shows me that imperfect humans are directing the organization. I also mentioned the UN and how the Society regards it as the "Disgusting thing" and "image of the wild beast", yet 'the Society' secretly joined it. Was this God's decision or Man's?
We also discussed the Child abuse cover-ups. I told her that Presiding Overseers have repeatedly refused to give up any confessions that molesters have made to them in judicial committees when asked by the courts. I asked her why they would protect these perverts? She said that they had the legal right to. I asked her if she would shield a molester from punishment in this same way. I forget her exact answer but she reluctantly indicated no, she would have turned them in.
It's really unfortunate that my dear Mom is stuck in this stupid f#(%ing cult. It has put such an unnecessary strain on our once normal family. I've seen a energetic positive woman turn into a fearful, depressed, judgmental person. She is truly sad that her kids will die at Armageddon. She is even more depressed that there is now distance between her and her kids who are not JW's. All this lady wanted was to have a normal life with a happy family who got together and enjoyed themselves. I fondly remember her compensating for my harsh disinterested father by making Christmas, Thanksgiving and Birthdays special events. She made sure we played sports made friends and had an all around happy childhood. My bonehead father became a Witness largely because he could 'win' arguments with people and prove others 'wrong'. He dragged all of us into this mess. My Mom was the most resistant to it since it meant dismantling everything she found pleasure in. Eventually she capitulated and slowly replaced her friends and siblings with other JW's. Her view of the world became more dim and dark as time went on. The JW schedule wears her down, yet she knows she must comply or be viewed negatively in her only remaining social circle or be embarrassed or guilted by a talk about spiritually weak ones. She is trapped in this mess with no way out.
There have been times when we've all gotten together and she seems to forget the JW imposed barriers. She is the happiest person alive then. But soon enough she reverts back to the Borg mentality. It's like a parasite that has sickened our family. I have given up hope on any semblance of a normal relationship with her again. Just another casualty of the Watchtower family wrecking machine.