7 years ago I was this "Ultra Spiritual Elder". You name it, I was visible all over the Region. I was the Coordinator, On the Convention Committee, RBC, had a Talk at every Convention and Assembly, Regular Pioneer, etc. Then my 19 year old decides to Fornicate in his apartment(It's joined to the House) while we were away on a RBC project. Then the Elder Body decided to delete me(although an Elder in a nearby congregation, his son living in his home, 25 years old did the same thing as my son, he gets to keep his position, double standard and I kick my boy out of house immediately, the other Elder let his son stay).
Fast forward to today, 7 years later. I'm physically in a Congregation, mentally out. It's all crazy how I have evolved. When I was an Elder, I read every piece of JW literature, read my Bible every day, the whole JW routine. Now, basically nothing. The only time I read the Bible is at the Meetings. What's worse, Back when I was Serving, to me, Jehovah was my Best Friend, always there, I felt "empowered with Holy Spirit", now, I feel nothing!
After reading the experience of the former DO(Joe) from Australia, he doesn't believe in the Bible, and how he is now an atheist, I am even more messed up! I can't get the Scripture out of my mind, Rev. 22: 12,20 "Look, I am coming quickly..." Those words were written some 2000 years ago! If I was alive back then, I would assume Jesus would come back in my lifetime. After all, Quickly means quickly!!!! Now, someone may reason, "It's according to Jehovah's view of time". My reply is: "Supposedly, the Bible was written for Men, not God", our timetable, not his. Even Jesus back in 33CE said :" this generation will by no means pass away until all these things occur", and it did 37 years later in 70CE ( there's another argument, the Generation teaching).
The Watchtower Organization is making itself harder with each passing day, to buying into their doctrines... What's there to believe in anymore? I'm not feeling it!