Maybe, just take a long break and focus on helping those in my community, like the Methodist's Do.
I'm not good at telling people what to believe or not, but I could suggest about what not to do. I have known of people who have gone through similar situations and then make decisions that may not settle well with what this forum is for. Some people return to the congregation and become uber JWs again.
Whatever you choose, please know that this is a forum for support to others, and that right now you have a listening ear. Don't attack us later if you choose to go back to be a super duper spiritual JW.