Thank you all for your comments
i also saw an old friend who taught me to garden at the Kingdom Hall when I was a teenager, I asked fondly after his fleshly brother , he said through tears don't talk to me about him he is disfellowshipped , My reply, whilst I held both his hands was. He is your brother you must love him, it's love that conquers and never fails, isn't it?
they are dumbfounded by simplicity and honesty
I don't want to sound immodest, but truthfully I felt stronger and wiser, more stable and rooted than any of them.
There here were over 400 people at my mothers funeral, they all loved her dearly for which I am grateful for she was a beautiful human being innately wise and loving, which to be fair was mentioned by the elder giving the talk.
it shocked a fair few when they asked am I going to return to the organisation , I said
"no it might surprise you to know neither my mother or my father wanted me to"
both served 'faithfully' for over 50 years",so maybe it just might make a few genuine ones there think.
it was in 1994, that I mentally left the JW's another 7 years to completely leave physically and another 7 to rebuild myself. I went to university and studied philosophy , it took time to make lovely friends, and get my children grounded and happy after the brain washing of their formative years.
Nowadays I don't even consider myself an ex witness which is another milestone.
going back to the Kingdom Hall and being mentally and emotionally strong shook them
I remained loving and respectful to everyone throughout the day and my beautiful now adult children did the same
i am proud of whom we have become ; my 5 siblings are still strong pioneer types but during these last few weeks they have turned to me and my children for comfort and support.
if you are in the process of leaving JW's be reassured it can be done and successfully but it takes time and effort and support from forums like this, and digging deep into your self and finding the new authentic personality that resides in you,
It really is the that innate truth that sets you free
thank you to Simon and his wife that set this forum up many years ago