I think I'm going to go cry.
Do it!! There is nothing wrong with having a good cry. (As I have noticed myself the last week, been sobbing at the drop of a hat lately)
You're stressed hun. I've been there, I am there, we've all experienced it. It sucks, but you are entitled to, and should cry your head off! (Screaming is a nice punctuation sometimes as well).
As far as not being much help to anyone--we'll sorry to disagree but you're dead wrong! And I will fight about this too! Recently you sent me an IM out of the blue. No reason why. I hadn't posted anything, or been in chat for a long time. You just wrote me a note to say hi, and tell me that you "appreciated" me. You know that whole scripture about words at the right time? Yeah--totally applies in this situation. I was feeling generally down anyway--and not feeling the love, and feeling like I didn't really matter to anyone at all. And while you and I have never spoken, except through board posts, and private messages here, it really touched me. I was able to stop my crying for a few minutes, and smile, cuz someone I didn't even know, who I had never done anything for, had done something so sweet for me, that she would never realize how important it was to me to hear that. (Well now maybe you know cuz I told ya).
And then a few weeks later, when the proverbial poo really hit the fan, you were also there--when I publicly needed help and a chance to vent, you were still there providing words of encouragement.
So we do what we can, when we can. But don't ever say you haven't helped anyone- You have no idea what you've already done. *lots of hugs!!* and much