Do you still pray ? To whom do you pray ? So lost. Advice please.
Half banana has the right of it.
I see clicking on Users at the top of the page that you have been with us as a member today. So welcome!
When you have a chance perhaps you can share your story with us. What brought you here and what brought you to ask your question? Details and locations can be vague if you need to keep your life and circumstances private.
I feel it's important to treat newcomers with respect......... part of that respect is to take your question seriously.
One thing you should know is that most of us are X JW's on this forum. Some are non believers, some are agnostics and some do believe in a god or The GOD.
Baptism is an individual decision as is belief in a god.
The Christian rite of baptism has similarities to Tevilah, a Jewish purification ritual of immersing in water which is required for, among other things, conversion, but differs in that Tevilah is repeatable, while baptism is to be performed only once. John the Baptist, who is considered a forerunner to Christianity, used baptism as the central sacrament of his messianic movement. Christians consider Jesus to have instituted the sacrament of baptism. The earliest Christian baptisms were probably normally by immersion, though other modes may have also been used. By the third and fourth centuries, baptism involved catechetical instruction as well as chrismation, exorcisms, laying on of hands, and recitation of a creed. Affusion became the normal mode of baptism between the twelfth and fourteenth centuries, though immersion was still practiced into the sixteenth. In the sixteenth century, Martin Luther retained baptism as a sacrament, but Swiss reformer Huldrych Zwingli considered baptism and the Lord's supper to be symbolic. Anabaptists denied the validity of infant baptism, which was the normal practice when their movement started and practiced believer's baptism instead. Several other groups, notably the Baptists and Dunkards, have always practiced baptism by immersion as following the Biblical example
The decision or question really is do you adopt other peoples beliefs or do you follow your own path and determine what's right for you.
Fortunately you live in the internet era so you can research baptism on line as well as every aspect of every religion or non religion.
If there is one thing in common it's that we are all on separate journeys away from the high control the JW experience.