really learned was the lack of love in any congregation I had been at for the last 40 years, and at
Bethel, the circuit/district overseers, the publications saying to show love,
and then making abusive comments about how to treat people in your
congregation. Occasionally, there was one or two individuals who actually exhibited the kind of love the gospel seemed to talk about. But they were jws who were considered on the fringe by the more elite jws. Elders who beat the sheep, and never felt going after the one lost one, was more important the 99 still "in," going through the motions of shepherding but doing as my husband, who observed this in the elder meetings. He was taught the drive-by technique. Drive up to the house, determine from the street if anyone was home, hope to catch someone doing a df'ing offense, such as smoking outside, and then driving on to the next drive-by on their list to check off as done for the CO.
Here is a quote from a 2006 WT Comments about how I left at the
announcements in the morning on the first day of the circuit assembly. I left
in 2001 never to return.
I can say that when I stopped attending all meetings at the KH
and conventions and assemblies that my despondency disappeared. How quickly the
oppressive fog lifted. No more hearing that I was an elephant conditioned to
stay chained to a post, that non-JWs were only corpses, and that Jesus only
picked up shiny new quarters and left the dirty pennies on the sidewalk. No
more wondering why the love of God and Jesus weren't seen at the WTS
gatherings. If you haven't already, why not take a vacation from the WTS grind?