Thank you everyone for the warm welcome.
To those who advised caution sharing too much info even in PM I hear you. I know how deceptive elders and "loyal ones of Jehovah" can be.
Unfortunately my wife is still in but I do see cracks in the "spiritual armor" from time to time so I am hopeful of her joining us all on the outside. She is aware of my "extreme doubts" as I put them to her but I haven't shared my full fall from JW grace yet. Don't want to shock her into full JW mode.
Those who expressed concern over my mental health. Thank you for your concerns, I am happy to say however that I have never felt more at peace. The anger and confusion that clouded my mind for so long has lifted. But if I ever sense I need professional help I will seek it out. I'm not too proud to ask for help.
And finally to the person who asked about tight pants Tony. I was in attendance to a video feed of that talk. Didn't really think it was a big deal at the time but since then I have realized how stupid he was. Beards and facial hair never made sense to me what the big deal was, until I understood it was a control tactic, and visual gauge of your compliance to rules. Last fall when they almost loosen the restrictions on beards it was comical to hear so many talk about how cool it would be to finally grow one. Adults having to wait for permission to grow hair on their faces, and what kind of pants to wear. Let's review, It's a cult!
Ok that was longer then I intended lol. Peace everybody!