I am grateful for leaving the watchtower corporation. Innit!

by punkofnice 34 Replies latest watchtower beliefs

  • punkofnice

    Gor blimey, Uni. I bleedin' wonder how many jobos pretend it's all 'Stepford' but are dying inside secretly?

  • LoveUniHateExams

    @Punk - yeah ... there even could be a temptation to put your head in the sand and just carry on as if everything's a-ok.

    My wife of x amount of years is beautiful, the sex is regular and usually great ... but it's not real. She doesn't love me. The whole thing's a load of bollo.

    Do I just go with the flow and be largely comfortable and ignore the something lurking at the back of my mind, or do I leave - at great personal cost - and spend a lot of effort in starting again ... with no guarantee that I'll find anyone else!

    I still think we've made the right decision to leave the WT.

  • GrreatTeacher

    I know I'm a weirdo, but I kinda enjoy the fact that life's meaningless.

    It frees me from the struggle of trying to find meaning in everything; trying to make all the pieces fit.

    I'm no longer interested in even creating a coherent meaningful story to explain the events in the arc of my life.

    Yeah, work sucks. It's work, it's supposed to. But, my weekends are mine and if I don't have anything more meaningful to do than look forward to a good cup of coffee in the morning and a perusal of the internet in the afternoon, then that's fine by me.

    Oh, and some good quality laundry time. God, I love the smell of laundry soap and bleach!

  • punkofnice

    Uni - I don't believe in altruism anymore. We're all rotten bleeders at heart.

    GT - Oh, yes. I'm with you there. Even the laundry.

  • dubstepped

    Hey Punko, I agree with lots of what you wrote, but with your depressive thoughts and nihilistic outlook I was wondering how much joy you find. Life tends to have the meaning we give it.

    So what do you enjoy post-cult? What makes you happy, even if we all know the eventuality? I've enjoyed your posts over time, so they meant something to me.

  • punkofnice
    dub -how much joy you find.

    Not a great deal. People disappoint me immensely.

    So what do you enjoy post-cult?

    I've been looking for a big finish, in terms of good happening. I realise that that is just watchtower(tm) thinking. I enjoy coffee and cake in town with my daughter.

    Watching 'University Challenge' with another family member.

    I've enjoyed doing all the book writing....the first of which was a very sexually explicit and violent novel. It has jobos in it too.

    I'm working on poetry books now in a kind of anarchic fight against pretentious people that find hidden meanings in poems, thereby, making it all about themselves.

    I play on a '70's cover band. It's okay but I don't really like doing covers of other people's songs....problem is...no one likes original stuff much....plus I'm old, with a face so wrinkled I'm having a skin graft from my nut sack. The music scene is just so 'corporate'. ...and I don't want to perform free gigs or open mics.

    Anyway, thanks for asking.

  • Wake Me Up Before You Jo-Ho
    Wake Me Up Before You Jo-Ho

    @punkofnice: "I'm old, with a face so wrinkled I'm having a skin graft from my nut sack."

    My sweet lord.

    Dare I ask, what was your first STI? The Plague?

    PS: Which genre from the 70s??? You're tapping into my world, now...

  • punkofnice

    JoHo - First STI was definitely the black death.



    I am a bacon boy!

  • Wake Me Up Before You Jo-Ho
    Wake Me Up Before You Jo-Ho

    That is awesome!!! (not the Black Death part, but your band)

    The 70s and 80s saw some incredible music from English composers. I had a thing with Jimmy Kaleth (lead singer from Jonesy and Gold) back in '10. He's in Brighton right now. Still on friendly terms : ). Don't want to hijack your thread, but have to share this oldie from Jonesy:


  • Still Totally ADD
    Still Totally ADD

    Hey punk I went through some of the things you did. I also went to a local community Church for about 6 months and came to the conclusion of there being no god. The depression, anxiety and self doubt over whelm me foe a while. After about a year I started to pick myself and found a part time job. At that point my self esteem came back.

    A week does not go by where I am telling our new friends how destructive this cult is. I look at the cult as slow death by malnutrition where you get weaker and weaker.

    I have been reading a lot lately one of my favorite authors is Robert Fulghum. I am in the middle of one of his first books "All I Really Need To Know I Learned In Kindergarten" Uncommon Thoughts On Common Things. His books consist of many 2-4 page stories. They are simple to read but have deep meanings. They are uplifting, funny and sobering. For a guy like me with ADD his books are perfect. For me I find his writings help to see were I am and were I am going.

    Here in the U.S. listening to much to politics is like banging your head against a wall. Please forgive my ignorance by asking this. What are your books about? Cult did teach us one thing advertise, advertise, advertise. Thank you for your insightful post. Still Totally ADD

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