Recently quit being a JW because I realised that beyond Armageddon I was going to be ruled by people who cover up child abuse, not telling the congregations by their letter where the money they donated in the box is going towards paying compensation for legal battles which they caused, and also I was bullied by elders and discriminated against for being homosexual, even though I am not practicing it. It wasn't until I threatened legal action for a breach of confidence that the elders were deleted. So through the media and my own personal experience, I realised that they were no different to corrupt businesses in the world. Now I feel empty because I have no friends as I was trained to avoid worldly association and also my family shun me because I was a witness. So I've come on here to cure my loneliness and because they have caused me to suffer from depression and PTSD as a result. I realised that it wasn't Satan that was causing me so much grief but those taking the lead.
I never thought that I would be "apostate" but I've been so disheartened and despondent, sick to the stomach over their hypocrisy and wrongdoing and then repentantly trying to cover it over and lying to everyone. I feel a victim of deception until I discovered the truth about those taking the lead (or pss).