The thing that killed me was that no matter how hard I tried to overcome objections, no matter how much I prepared, etc as soon as I would leave a door I would be slammed for not doing better by my JW partner. I pioneered in a hall where there were 10 pioneers and one of the worst days of my life this other 'pioneer sister" in front of all the others asked me "WHAT GOOD DO YOU DO PIONEERING!!!?" WHAT GOOD!!!?" I just sat there stunned at her huge anger at me. She demanded that she "WANTED AN ANSWER!!! All the other pioneers just sat there staring at me waiting for me to say something. I just mumbled that I guess I did not good, and she said "YES! AND WHY DO YOU EVEN BOTHER!!!?"
Well I bothered because I was married to an elder and we were assigned to the hall because the need was great for elders and I had to go out in service because the faithful-slave demanded it of me.
One time I started a study on the first call, I was so excited and I stupidly told the older brother in the car who was an elder and in his 60's. This elder was SO PISSED at me. I mean MAD beyond MAD. I was shocked at his anger and he demanded that I give him the address because I was going to turn it over to someone else. He told me his reason was because I was so poor that I did not have the money to buy a car, I had just moved out of my extremely abusive parents home and I just could not afford a car. Well this elder and his exact words were "I will not have you using the friends to take you on a study this far from the hall.
Oh talk about being bit at the door by dogs, Six time, I was attracted twice where I just made it inside the car with the dog ready to kill me with all the other JW's inside laughing their head off at my pain.
I have had guns pulled on me, my life threatened more time then I care to number. Been robbed at gun point because of being demanded that we go out in a area that was not safe but hey Jehovah will protect us, Well he must of been asleep that day.
Yes I hate field service and found no joy in it at all.