Started having doubts after the November 1995 ''generation'' change. I was badly fractured. Those doubts were fertilized by the lack of love from people in the congregation, feeling like an outsider constantly. The cliques just led to more and more being less involved in the congregations. More an more doubts added-up. Something just didn't feel right. It didn't really hit me hard or all at once what I learned about the WBTS. It just added-up, added-up over time, unlike some who are hit hard when they learned about the WBTS. Just fading more and more all the time. It was an extremely gradual ''awakening'' you might call it.