You are right and wrong :)
Being IN for such a long time makes it hard to not look back at the waste and see how little good time is left.
On the other hand - being out for me is so much better because I have freed my young kids of the Cult.
They don't have to waste their lives chasing a fairytale.
And there are the unforeseen circumstances that add to the crapfest.
I am still sorting things out as you can tell.