My judicial committee was set for Monday. They knew I wasn't going to show up.
Meanwhile, I had been ignoring phone calls, but I knew the elders were trying to call.
Last night, I get a phone call from my dad,
(who has only called me once ever and the whole conversation was about how much he does for other people and how much those people liked him and how much he does in ministry, otherwise, he has basically ignored me for the past 20 years)
The message says to call back asap and that he loves me, but he said it like "I love ya, girl" he never has said that to me like that. (Manipulation)
So, I call back and he says I have been a hard person to get a hold of and that confused me because I had not received any calls from him. He put the elders on the phone and said they wanted to talk to me. They told me that I was disfellowshipped, which they acknowledged that I already knew that and that I have 7 days to appeal. I asked about shunning because the video from that lawsuit in Canada on YouTube the guy said the family still can interact, just not spiritually, so who is telling the truth. He said if I were to get hurt, then the family is allowed to speak to me, but otherwise it's cut off. I admittedly, at that moment, lost my cool and told them they were wrong and have no compassion and that's not the spirit of Jesus and they were cruel. He politely got off the phone and gave it back to my dad.
I told him that I asked them not to announce it because it would embarrass them and that if they did announce it, the elders aren't being loving to them. I asked how they were doing and he said "great!" With what you can hear is a smile. He was enjoying this. He said he was going to keep serving Jeh, and I declared Me too! And I said he raised a good girl who loves the Lord with all my heart and soul strength and that is why I can never be a jw because of the manipulation, lies and cruelty of the organization. He said that worshipping Jesus was wrong and I offered to send him several scriptures stating the opposite. He said I believed half truths and I said how would he know what I believe? We haven't even had a conversation in years. Plus, I said, how would you know what I am being taught or the things that I have read? Has he looked into it? And he said he would never read apostate literature and I called him ignorant for not knowing what he is talking about. I told him that if he wants to believe lies about me that he made up that he could if that would help him sleep at night. I told him that's what narcissistic people do. I did tell him that Jehovah would judge him and I do regret having that attitude - it's supposed to be please forgive them they know not what they do - I wasn't there at that moment! I did tell him I would work to forgive him. He kept trying to get off the phone. I said, do you really want this to be our last conversation or can we work this out, but he said he was hanging up, so I hung up!
So, it's done! My takeaways:
I saw manipulation, no natural affection, deception, sadism, narcissism, unreasonableness, fear and you could tell they were enjoying it the whole time. Nothing but smiles and lies.
I am hoping this will give me more freedom as I work to forgive my dad and that evil organization. I just have to stop watching videos and reading articles that give me a sense of entitlement towards them. They are white-washed tombs. Wipe the dust off my feet and keep going. If God sees fit to work on their hearts then they will come back to me. But, I have to live in the present and enjoy my freedom!!
Galatians 5:1 For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery
Anyways, thanks for listening!!