Lately I've been feeling just so fed up with this stupid religion I really can't take it anymore! I'm starting to think that maybe I should just tell my parents how I really feel. If they treat me too badly or kick me out I could probably stay with my non jw aunt.
Ive just reached my breaking point, I don't really care what people think of me anymore. If my parents love really is only conditional (which I think it is) then there's no point in trying to make them happy anyway. The people at my hall are all jerks though, I don't care if they don't like me anymore. I'm only an unbaptized publisher, so I can't be shunned too badly, but my dad is an elder so he may decide to be done with me.
I'm really scared and I don't want this life anymore :( I want to leave so badly. I will be 17 next month but I don't think I can wait another year. Do you guys have any advice? I will have to tell them eventually anyway, I get the feeling that they know I'm not very "spiritually strong" anyways.