by MarkofCane 61 Replies latest jw experiences
Welcome
It is a sad,confusing and lonesome time in the beginning. It WLL get better.
Take it slow. One day at a time. Work through things slowly and do not talk to others about your doubts. This organization will hang you out to dry.
We are all here for you.
Hang in there... And take it r.e.a.l.l.y... s..l..o..w. With family...
I managed to get my own family out of the cult in 1.5 years after my own awakened....
Act very slow now.. (Is my own small tip)
Welcome. I know where you are coming from, once you know ttatt there is no going back no matter how much you wish you could. Sometimes I truly wish I could as life just seemed simpler in many ways but it was all a lie and better to find out now than even latter in life. Glad you found this place it saved me just to know I was not alone in my awaking was huge.
LITS
Alive! asked, "Wouldn't that be consulting with demons, I asked as I read the accounts..."
IF demons actually existed, then yes, it would be. But demons, like god, jesus, heaven and the soul are all products of chimpanzee imagination attempting to explain a universe he did not yet understand.
It _IS_ crazy, but you are not.
That was awesome you write like a weapon. Thanks for sharing.
I lost my Dad when young, and held hopes of seeing him again for 25 years. I was raised a JW and only woke up a few years ago.
Great and moving account, thank you for sharing....
Its a shocker alright, I woke up about 8 months ago, I'm just coming out of the fog now, starting to enjoy life, but in the early days I felt physically sick and close to a breakdown. Regrets...., not worth thinking over, they just lead to depression and frustration - best to live life properly, for today and tomorrow and for us and our families, not for some self appointed delusional men on a powertrip. If I look back I wouldn't have got married as young as I did, would have had a better career, been closer to my non witness family, probably wouldn't have stayed married and endured abuse, but then I wouldn't have my 3 beautiful kids either. Life's as game of choices, just be glad you're making a good one now....
Oh and I loved you're 'off the hamster wheel' comment - yes it feels great!!!!!
I will tell the rest of my story shortly, but a side note. So I finally decided to post my story for the first time, thought about it many times but never dared. Well as I'm typing this out I hear a loud knock at my door who can it be but two elders, crap I didn't even minimize my screen just got up and opened the door. They wanted to invite me to the meeting on Sunday (like I forgot when it was or something) and they asked if they can come over with the new CO. Apparently he wants to meet me.
Good grief! I was so rattled by my extracurricular activities I said sure. "Um when in 2 weeks OK", Duh... anyways what are the odds that they would show up as I'm typing my delusional ramblings about my awaking. I just thought it bizarre, if they where writing this story they would of said the angles sent them...LOL. So I Got a meeting with the new CO any thoughts?
Funny coincidence , I would just play along or make up an excuse a day in advance to cancel the meet up .
They are are most likely doing the call on questionable inactive one agenda when the CO visits..
I remember posting on here - as in actually typing - a few months after resigning as an elder when the phone rang and it was a very sincere, misguided but kindly ex-fellow elder I'll call "J" who wanted to pick my brains about a judicial case we had been on together as the third man had also resigned as an elder and moved away and he, that is "J" - couldn't remember the details.
So there I am, feet up on the desk one afternoon, this site open in mid-post and he says "Young XXX is having problems again, confidentially can you remember "the steps leading to his sin" last time?"
Anyway I offered some help stressing that the young man came from a difficult background and needed kindness and he agreed.
He says "Of course he went on unauthorised websites didn't he?"
I nearly choked on my cup of tea!
Then he says "I really miss having someone with a bit of common sense on the body, it's not the same since you and YYY stepped down!"
That was awesome you write like a weapon. Thanks for sharing.
I lost my Dad when young, and held hopes of seeing him again for 25 years. I was raised a JW and only woke up a few years ago.
HI
2+2=5
Sorry about your Dad. Lost my Dad when I was young as well I was around 15. I suppressed a lot of my emotions about his death. I think that's why I broke down at the cemetery, you know that's not even where he's buried. Some day soon i will go back to my hometown and visit his grave just to close that chapter of my awaking and life.
