I remember when my faith left me. I used to enjoy meetings and used to participate but then all of a sudden I was finding myself bored shitless at meetings.
I was taken off the theocratic ministry school for not attending when I was due to give a talk and not long after did something naughty and got disfellowshiped.
I can remember my Jc one good elder ( who was a personal friend) one elder who made no comments and one really nasty all. I could think of was I wanted out. All this while I was dealing with severe mental health problems.