I would have preferred (and have said this many times to my family) to have never been 'in the truth'. But I can't change a decision made by my parents, which has affected my whole life and still is.
I am glad I found out TTATT but it has caused immense conflict in my life with my family. Trying to make them see what I now see but couldn't has caused much pain and tears for all of us. So in that respect with reflection I admit it would have been easier if I had never questioned anything and just been a good little girl and kept my mouth shut and carried on like a little robot. But I couldn't and so here I am.