Hello! This is my first post and hopefully I can get some advice and input. I have been actively involved with the organization for a little over 10 years now. I began studying in high school, got baptized and my family fortunately did not. While in the organization I had many privileges including regular pioneering and serving as a ministerial servant. I also made very close friends who make up 98% of my current social system.
For a year now, I have examined the teachings, history and policies of the organization deeply. Obviously, when a JW loses his or her fear of information and reads from credible sources outside of the Watchtower publications, their eyes are opened up to what is actually true. With that said, I don't want to go back.
My problem is that I don't want to hurt my friends in the organization either. So I have asked my COBE to delete me as a ministerial servant and I have made him aware that I don't plan to attend meetings or participate in field service any more. The elders are aware that I had doubts before and that I was planning to leave. It seems as though they are going to allow me to fade away into inactivity as long as I don't disrupt the congregation with apostasy.
The announcement of my deletion hopefully will be made soon. I know whenever the friends don't see me at a few meetings, I am going to begin getting usual amounts of texts, phone calls, and unannounced visits at my house.
Does anyone have experiences like this? What were you able to say to the friends to get them to leave you alone without the potential of saying something/acting like an apostate?