I have a question: I am happily faded but I recently got the desire to talk to an elder of my old congregation. The problem is that he doesn't know I am faded (i kinda disappeared from JW archives while moving to college), and that i do not want to get into trouble by this. I just have so many questions left. When I left I mainly left as I wanted to do the same things as my friends, but now i have read some books (e.g. Approaching Jehovah's witnesses in Love by Wilbur Lingle) and I just want to talk to a real JW again. I could of course talk to my parents as they are still JW, but I don't want to give them hope that there is a chance that ill come back (not very soon anyway).
How are the guidelines? If I do talk to him and will be very negative, is there a chance that i can be dfd just based on that? I am also very afraid that ill burst into tears and tell him every stupid (in their eyes, i had lots of fun ;)) things i've done as i always feel guilty in front of God for doing them (i only faded about 2 yrs ago). Does anyone have experienced in such things? What should I do?
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