@scotsman - I can tell you that it left me feeling "heavy". It wasn't even specific, just heavy. The lack of joy in the cult shines through and it took me a day or two to kind of process it all internally. It's just bleak, a good and true representation of the cult.
Amen brother. Anytime we 'step away' from something that has had such a powerful influence in our life, basically our entire way of life, it's gonna hurt and leave us on empty. Filling our lives back up with meaningful endeavors takes time but the journey is so well worth it! Living life!