If you take the red pill, you'll have knowledge, you'll be awakened, aware of reality, you'll have freedom.
If you take the blue pill, you stay in your bubble, wearing rose colored glasses, and feel security in an illusion.
Taking the red pill isn't something that's easy to do. To accept that everything around you is an illusion built up on lies or half truths. But hey, it might feel good to be aware and break free from this illusion. But is it? Because while you've taken the red pill, your friends, your family are still taking the blue pill. So now, you're alone and now you don't have anybody because they most likely will NEVER take the red pill.
As I type this, it has been a year since my doubts on the Org began to grow and I began researching and researching. Then the 2016 Presidential Election happened. And I was sure that the Great Tribulation was going to start soon. That's what I was hearing all around me. My parents were saying it, my friends, all the speculation. And I was frightened. I didn't want to be left out of the ark, or be outside of the "bunker" or basement, however you want to call it. But then January 2017 came and I still continued my research, it wasn't until then that I had finally woken up.
It was such a crazy experience, like removing headphones and looking to your left and right and seeing a whole bunch of smiling faces and nodding during the meetings and the thunderous applauds during an assembly over a young child getting baptized, dedicating the rest of their life, to this.
But see now I feel stuck, I question if all the research was worth it? Was I better off having taken the blue pill? Stay in the illusion, the fantasy? Keep my family and friends and marry a sister and raise young JW children the same way I was raised and indoctrinate them? Continuing to live with a chain and ball attached on my leg? I have no doubt that all of this psychologically messes a person up. See because now I've taken the red pill, and I can't go back, I can't take the blue pill, and because of that I can lose my family and friends. It's really sad isn't it? Anybody else every think about this?