We occasionally get wind of new lies being spread about us in our old JW community. Having 'served' in fourteen different congregations in six states often serving where the 'need is great', one decade in the fulltime work and nearly two decades as a PO, it appears are current status with the organization is causing a bit of a scandal.
Yesterday we received a phone call from an old friend at Bethel. The only thing that surprised me more than the fact that he called was that he had not yet heard of our new status. After all, we let the JW world know we were marching for silent lambs in September and walked within about 100 feet of his administrative office ( he is a director of one of the many WT corporations ). We chatted briefly about family and old friends and ended with a commitment to talk again soon. I gave him a clue that things had changed with us but he did not pick up on it. One way or another he is soon to discover what that change was.
WE HAVE LOST OUR FAITH.
Really, the faith we had we have lost. To our old witness friends we have lost the battle of the "fine fight of the faith". When a witness in long time good standing 'falls away' it is clear they have lost the battle of their faith. But it does not mean we have lost our spirituality. What the JW's cannot imagine is spirituality with out WT conformity. And this is because their FAITH IS IN THE ORGANIZATION, NOT IN GOD.
A JW will say "how can you say that? My faith is in Jehovah and the Bible". The fact is this is a group faith contingent on an institution. The institution decides what we believe, claiming they are lead by God. They then instruct the faithful as to what is truth (present truth). I am confident all of us had what were called 'doubts'. This 'faith' we claimed required us to dismiss what we did not believe (put aside doubts) in favor of our faith that God was directing the 'organization. Thus my faith was not in what I believed about God but in what the WT told me to believe because I had FAITH IN THE ORGANIZATION.
This faith has been lost. Faith that the ORGANIZATION lead by men but directed by God has PROVEN TO BE AN ILLUSION. However this loss of faith is obviously not a spiritual problem but a step forward. Faith in an organization of men while claiming to be lead by God is still faith in men.
"Do not put YOUR trust in nobles, Nor in the son of earthling man, to whom no salvation belongs" psalm 146:3
Have you lost that faith? Good for you. I wish my old friends could realize that faith in men claiming to be 'noble' is the only faith I have lost, and the freedom is wonderful.
Edited by - Jst2laws on 2 February 2003 14:32:52