I will start off saying that at first when I was trying to think of a title to this thread the only word that came to mind, was two really............sorry but I am trying to not get this edited.... I will feel bad for the words I want to say right now. F you Daddy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My little 8 yr old son for some reason ,out of the blue to me........... asked me why his other pappaw doestnt love him??? OMG, I havent heard my two older children express what this little 8 yrs old said to me tonite. He asked why ...........why didn't his other pappaw , my dad, love him, what did he do to make him not love him. I am sure some of you must have heard this..... But this hit me hard
Tonight my children went to their only pappaw, WildTurkeys dad's house for a bit. On our way home, he brought all of this out, I am not sure why. But my baby, has always had such a way of letting me know that things bother him, he even clings to me more than I think is age approriate,,,hard to explain,,, but from what I have seen of other kids his age, he feels a lot of pain. I guess he is very emotional like me.
I tried to tell him it didnt matter that the man he calls his other pappaw, didnt love him, we would do fine without his love, we have at least one good pappaw . I told him that his daddy's mom and dad were like my real mom and dad. And that the one pappaw would give his life for him. I told him I loved this man as much as he does, and I am ok. I think it all boils down that my little son, is mad, yeah real mad, that someone that calls himself my father doesnt love me. My son loves me so much he hates the fact that this stranger who is is other pappaw doesnt love HIS mom. He, at the young age he is,, sees truth, he sees the way it really is. Even thou I cry behind closed doors , I try to protect my kids form the pain that my dad's indifference to me, really has hurt me.
I guess my little son , did me one big favor even thou he doesnt know it....... He made me hate my dad in away that I don' t think I will cry another tear for the sorry bastard.
My son had tears , many tears running down his cheeks, about the way my dad doesnt love HIM.
I am a very protective mother, don't screw with my kids or I will fight you to the death.
Well, it happend tonite, even thou my damn dad didnt even know it. He hurt the most precious thing to me,,,,,,, god damn him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is an unforgivable sin to me. There will not be any forgiveness for this. I guess because I know he wouldnt give a damn.
My little son,,,,,,, sees the love he gets from his only good pappaw and saw that he should have two , and that his mom doesnt have the love either.
An 8 yr old little boy. I don't know of many things in my life that have hurt my heart so much. But what could I do but tell him I understand. He is so angry he wanted to do harm to my Dad. So do I.
I know this is so damn dysfunctional many may not understand. But this is what being a JW has done to my family. It took away his other grandmother, and his other pappaw.
This son was the one who had the nightmares of armeggedon, fears I am going to die like my mama did,the one who worries about everyone. I do my best to comfort him. But he knows the truth I can' t lie to him when he sees for himself the bitter truth of what this man , my dad has done.
He came home and got on the computer and told me he wanted me to hear a song, and that it is the way he feels about his other pappaw... the one who doesnt love him,,,,,,,,,,,
It was the Eieminim (sp) song, I'm sorry Mama....... but he said change the word mama to your daddy mama........ I have always thought of my dad when that song comes on, and Never told him that . I almost feel apart when the song came on and he told me that song was just like my daddy.
I don't know what to say to make this right, I guess there are no words to say to make it better for my son. It makes me damn sad that an 8 yr old boy has to see such ugliness from a man who claims to be such a Christain...... a self righteous JW.
I told my husband tonite......... if my dad ever comes 10 feet from me or my kids...... to give him the two words that came to mind..............F.$%^^ OFF!!! That is all that I can say without goint crazy on him. I know this is a real sad thing ,,,,,,, but this is what the WT , has done to families.
Hurt the innocent. The children. If JW's are God's choosen people( I swear I know they are not) I would tell anyone I would rather burn in hell than be associated with such evil bastards.
Okie Dokie , you all see my pain, you know my son's pain, but we will survive it.
I just needed to be able to say this. Thanks for listening,,,,,,, there are no words you all havent told me before,,,,,, there is no comfort, there are no explainations as to why........ it just is the way it is. I have seen worse. I just wanted my kids not to see it. But they do. Maybe they will be stronger for it , in the end. Too bad tears and pain have to be the way to learn life's lessons, .. I have to say , I cursed God , if he is out there,,,,,,, tonite. I don't understand how He can see these little kids hurt , be hurt, in many ways,,,,,,,,,, and just let it go on and on....... I am glad I have a place to tell this pain too......... I know one day I will be able to tell my son more things, but right now , I only tell him what I have too, the bitter truth he already knows.
Thank you WT for tearing my family up. And thank you WT for making my son lose his other pappaw........... They say everyone has to answer for what they do.............hummmmm what is the price the have to pay for a little boys broken heart and his tears?