by minimus 44 Replies latest jw friends
Like many... I believed... But I always beleived everything even with certain doubts... and always willing to wait for "new light"...
After I learned the truth about the toof... I tryed staying in and keeping quiet because of ALL my family and 'friends'... until one day I had to open my mouth because of a comment made by one of my JW friends... and from that day on... I was marked as an Apostate...
Fear. Once I got over that, I left.
ash
What kept me in was the imminence of Armageddon and the fear of losing eternal life. I am inactive now, but I still think of what I might lose if I don't go back. But how can I go back when all I see is evil and control.
It took me almost 20 years to leave after I began to realize that it wasn't true. I stayed in and kept up appearances (sort of) in order to keep my family together. After my daughter grew up and got married, it was only a year before my marriage fell apart, too, so there was no longer any reason to stay. Two weeks after my (now ex-)wife left, I was at an ex-witness convention.
Edited by - NeonMadman on 3 January 2003 10:22:31
friends and family only.
I believed the lot - once that stopped, the days were numbered.
I suffered (mostly in silence) for about four months, planning my exit and gathering my resources.
When the time finally came, I shrugged off the Wt. yoke and walked.
I still love so many of those left behind, but staying wasn't going to help, in my situation.
I was, and still am I guess, an idealist.
I would still like to live in a world where justice and truth prevails, and being honest and good is not considered to be a weakness. I believe that the New World Society could offer this. But sadly, like many here, I have been disillusioned by failed promises and the hypocrisy of many.
Eyeslice
ditto to the first poster reubenfine.
i am technically still in.....i cannot lose my daughter....it would destroy me...literally...it would be my death......that is why i am so afraid of opening up...as to my identity,,,who i am,, where i live,,,ect...
it is almost impossible for me to get close to anyone here on a personal level....so i guess fear could be the answer....
Minimus:
What kept or keep you in the Truth?
