Salem, I do care about you, and I'm glad you're reaching out. I know with what you've been through, you are tougher than 99% of the people here. But please don't think you have to stay around here, just to be bigger than the problems with this board. It can be a very unhealthy place for the healthiest person. I'm not, btw, trying to run you off either , I really believe that it can be very difficult (almost impossible) to moderate our time here, and moderate our feelings about the things posted here.