I just wanted to tell all of you how very much you mean to me. I want to especially thank my husband wild turkey, for finding this place and showing me the light. He was so encouraging to me when I first came into this room. He used to tell me he could tell a difference in me very soon after I started to come in here. He told me that it was good for me to find friends. At first I found some kind souls that took me under their wing , so to speak and each time I came in here, I grew as a person.
I have been here for just a short time, but have made so many new friends. In chat tonite we were talking about how much this place is really like family. Reborn, (Jason) said he feels closer to the internet family than his real family. I couldnt put it any better than that. He is so right. I love to come into the room and get the news of what is going on in ya'lls life , the ups , the downs, the new things I learn about you all.
Even my kids are getting to know some of you by listening to me and Wild talk about you , just like you are our next door neighbors. Many people say internet friends are not real,, but I disagree, I have meet more honest, loving , caring people by way of the internet than in any other way in my life.
I guess being isolated for so long and doing without friends in our little congregation of old folks, really made me hunger for people who wanted to be friends like we did.
As many of you know , my home life ended totally and forever when I was 18. I never had a home to go to , to see my family, eat sunday dinners with, or run to when I needed support. I really missed having that old home feeling. I am so happy and love my imidiate family of hub and 3 kids. But I guess I miss the feeling of going home again,,,, you know the feeling you get when you are loved no matter what. I know wild turkey feels the same way.
I guess i am saying you have filled a void that I had for so long, I have made friends that are more like mothers, fathers, uncles, cousins, sisters, brothers, and I never want to lose it.
Even as a witness, I thought I knew what brotherhood was about, but it was so conditional and more forced than natural. Here it is the real thing.
You all mean the world to me and wild,,,,,,,,, i just can't say it enough. If I die tomorrow, I will have lived this last year happy, happy that we all share such a common bond. The support here is more than I have ever known from so called jw friends.
I am proud of who I am now, as of later tonite , I will be disassociated. And that is the way I want it, I prefer to be with the real people, with real love and real values.
The term "Apostate" used to be such a dirty word to me........... now it means brother/sister.
I love you all,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, Dede