Swollen lymph nodes could just mean your immune system is working. It may not be cancer.
You are right, and it is better to think more about that than think about the worse case scenario. Thanks
Waiting, I'd like to see that program, it sounds good. Dark humour is a good way to verbalise feelings without coming across as overly morbid and I can see how that helps. I'm going to make a concerted effort to laugh more...they say that has theraputic properties in itself, don't they?
My feelings toward the whole experience of having cancer are mainly sadness, fear and worry. I haven't really felt angry. I don't think "why me?" because my life has been very blessed overall and I tend to think that there are lessons to be learned from an experience like this. Since the operation in March, and my subsequent all clear, I've been going at 100 miles an hour! I have renewed appreciation for life itself. Just this morning, I stepped outside into the cold and rain, and noticed a nice clean smell in the air and enjoyed the sensation of the raindrops on my face. OK I suppose this paragraph reads a little bit "sickly", but it is how I feel. There was a point a couple of years ago when I wanted to die and it strikes me as ironic that dying is the last thing I now want....a big lesson I've learned is that if you wish for something, you might get it.
Thanks Tina for the link, I will check that out.
Thanks everyone else for your good vibes and hugs. Today I'm feeling slightly better, and you are all definately contributing towards that!