Trying to make sense of it all?-----------------try this.
That we all been here many times to experenice all aspects of life.
We have been male an female.
We have been or will be most races on the planet.
We have been or will be a members of most religions on this planet!
We have been judges, soldiers, harlots, pleasants and some have been kings.We have been the prisoners and we have been the guards, we have killed, we have been killed.
Oh yes! We have been Zealots too.
There is no!!! GOOD or BAD Its all KARMA what You put out you get back. If not this life time the next or one 1000 years from now.
You ask why is this happening to me ---------------Why Not you?
This is called "earth school"---------Enjoy it, for its all good. Even the things that don't feel good are good because we learn from them, and knowelge is always good.
The buddist say "none of this matters but pretend like it does"
"Ingorance is 100% curable" Jessie Cahill
A good read is "Many lifes many masters" Weiss