Hello everybody, before i begin I just wanna say that I have really found alot of great posts on here that have been helpful forme , theres definitely alot of brilliant people here!
I am a born in JW(24 years old) Ive been baptized for 7 years and was a ministerial servant for 4 years(i am no longer one). Recently me and my parents have have woken up to TTATT(about 2 months ago). I am fading my parents have walked away all together. My dilema is I am currently dating a JW who i am in love with. She has all of the qualities ive wanted in a mate with one exception, of course which is shes a full fledged rank and file witness. Even with her being a R&F shes very understanding and non judgemental and someone i can trust in. Last night I decided to reveal all my questions/concerns/doubts to her about WT doctrines and the organization itself. We were able to have a very calm discussion about it and she listened to me get everything off my chest which i really appreiated.
She told me that although she could see some of my ponts of view(TTATT) and some things made sense, of course the JW life is the life she wants to live and that we should take a break while I ultimately "figure things out". Its a tough dilema for the both of us because for me 1) although im really beginning to fall in love with her and we have many great friends in the organization, im not sure if I wanna play this JW game for the rest of my life and raise kids in this religon and 2) Although I definitely consider myself a student of the bible and meetings dont really bother me too much(because i harldy pay attention ever even when I was an MS lol) im not sure if i could be the "spiritual head" she needs and deserves if the JW life is what she wants. We love each other and want to genuinely be together but were both selfless in this situation and ultimatley want to do whats best for each other in the long run. We just confused currently lol
I know there are many posts on this subject and any guidence anyone has for me would be greatly appreciated! Im also open to any questions you may have