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Is there another way to start partaking besides "out of the blue"?
Since I gave a little of my experience earlier, I'll add to it on account of the "out of the blue" comment.
The year before I began partaking I was one of the servers at the Memorial. As the brother was giving the talk, something struck me about his use of John 10:16. Thinking back now, I'm not exactly sure what it was, only that something was amiss. It led to months of research on the subject of partaking at the Lord's Evening Meal. The answer that my research was consistantly coming up with was that all Christians should partake.
After concluding that, I then went about researching and pondering the idea that since my partaking would be controversial at the Hall, maybe it would be best to refrain so as to not make any sort of public spectacle. I spent several months considering that, but again concluded that if it was a command to do it, then, there was no getting around it.
Having concluded that, with several months before the Memorial, I decided that I would attend another congregation for the Memorial so as not to cause any 'scene.' Unfortunately, the other elders decided amongst themselves that I would give the memorial talk. They decided this without my presence for the decision.
So, the first time was literally in front of all 200 or so and as the last one served the emblems. It was a shock to many, to be sure. I did reword the outline in such a way as to avoid saying anything against what I then understood to be the truth about it. As far as I can tell, no one noticed, which coincides with what others say about a lack of analytical thought in general at the KH. As a curious side note, many more visitors partook than is usual. I kind of think they may have picked up on my rewording more than the congregation members.
Needless to say, I never was given the Memorial talk again due to the fact that by the time the next Memorial came around I was no longer an elder.
There was nothing "out of the blue" about my decision to partake. I saw it as a well-considered act of faith in God, Jesus and His Word that, ironically enough, would be roundly condemned by the Society.
Take Care