Never, never was 100% in

by pontoon 31 Replies latest jw experiences

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  mrsjones5

  I never bought it too. Didn't get baptized cuz it didn't feel right. So glad I didn't.

  Reminds me of something: my oldest son has a friend whose parents are jws (mother baptized, father studying). The friend recently told his parents he doesn't want to be a jw and has stopped attending meetings. The mother had younger children who go to the same school as my youngest son. The mother barely says hi to me anymore. I think she blames my son and I, rather I know she does because the friend comfirmed it to my son. Funny.
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  cantleave

  I honestly believe no one buys everything 100%, everyone does the cult on their own terms.
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  LisaRose

  I was pretty much the same, meetings bored me, It just seemed like a waste of time. I never liked service, it just wasn't me to go around telling people my religion was better than theirs. I just kept at it, hoping somehow I would be a good JW someday. I thought I was the only one, I felt guilty all the time. In looking back, its amazing I lasted as long as I did. This religion never gives anything back to you, it just takes and takes until there is nothing left.
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  jwfacts

  I think this is what makes the internet so dangerous for the org. There were always those that disagreed with enough to leave of their own accord, and there are those that believe enough that they probably will never leave, but the ones that are inbetween stay because they just doubt themselves. The internet lets them know they are not alone, and not wrong in their doubts, and provides the strength to leave.
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  Phizzy

  I have a relative who was born in, is nearly 70 years old, and I would have said was 3million percent in.

  The other day she told my wife that if one of her kids was ever DF'd she would not shun them.

  I guess Cantleave is spot on (again), no one actually buys in 100%.
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  FadeToBlack

  A couple of years ago when the WT started harping about the dangers of porn, my wife told me she didn't see any problems if a married couple wanted to view it together. Needless to say, after I resumed my composure, I had to explain why the society was discussing this topic. She is not a born-in and being somewhat older, her view of what constitutes porn is probably a bit different than what is available today. Now that I look back, I should have just kept my mouth shut, nodded in agreement, and downloaded some soft-core stuff for us to watch together. Talk about missed opportunity!
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  whathappened

  Yes, I think this explains why some of the brothers I observed had such unexplainable behavior and reactions when I was still in. Sometimes things didn't quite seem right with some of them. Glad some of you have been able to break free.
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  Gefangene

  I put my doubts down on myself. Whenever I doubted I thought I wasn't spiritual enough. At conventions I believed I was the only one who couldn't apply all these rules.. I wasn't even willing .. and felt soo guilty about it

  I spent lots of months aux pioneering and was wwaiting for this so called 'joy' but always hated the door to door ministry.
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  LongHairGal

  PONTOON:

  I was definitely treated as if I was not 100 percent in because I work full-time.. However, the ones criticizing me were mostly older married women or retirees who must have forgotten what it was like to have to work. Also, the users and deadbeats got nowhere with me so I was on some sort of a 'shit list'.

  This is an "all or nothing" religion and if you can't or WON'T allow these f#ckers to be intrusive or exploit you to the nth degree (especially if you are a woman) they really hate you. It's just as well because it made it easier for me to leave when I couldn't stomach it anymore.
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  pontoon

  LongHairGirl:

  I stepped down serving as an elder in 2005, against the wishes of the rest of the body and the circuit overseer. From that time on I was treated like a leper. Really was not very close to anyone in the congregation when I left. I just got to a point when I just couldn't sit through another meeting and just stopped going. Period. That was it.

  And, how long is your hair?