I certainly believe in love, but I’ve come to appreciate it in a new way since I left the organization. For me, the wonder was that anyone could love me, that anyone would find me desirable, attractive or a person of real quality. I found it difficult to love myself, so I couldn’t believe that anyone outside my immediate family could or would ever do so or had in the past. How wrong I was!
Realizing this has made me better at both giving and receiving love now. I don’t think this would have been possible had I remained in the organization.
.......though we may suffer moments of despair indeed the key is to love who you are first
Reflections on love
A glass of red wine spent
Recalling life's event
mourning not waking up
next to my beloved
To warm my hopeful spirit
Yet now numbed to the cold
for life must go on
to thus bury myself
For we have walked different paths
And have known different fears.
And that which now brings you laughter
Might well bring me many tears.
I need to explore what sustains me
from the inside
when all else falls away.
I want to know if I can be alone
and if I truly like the company I keep
in these empty moments
in this unchosen solitude
Yet solitude rebuilds for but a moment..
with wishings for loves eternity