none of these persons inside the KH is going to matter to u in the near future, so why about how u look in front of them for now?
I may be stepping down!
Congrats!!!! It will be a load off your shoulders.
May the Force be With You! You will do just fine after you get away from the indoctrination. Spirituality is NOT about religion and you do not need anyone else's approval at all to get to God. Freedom is around the corner. Many blessings!
The elders said they want to meet with me...so we'll see how it goes
They're probably going to try to scare you with the threat of removal and get you motivated to "do more."
I'd suggest that you tell them that it is all too stressful and you would like to simplify your life by stepping down.
Before your "deletion" is announced, let everyone know that you decided to step down after they threatened to remove you for having low hours or something.
Or plan B, tell the brothers you've been looking at porn on the Internet and let them remove you and tell everyone that you're a pornaholic.
It's been said before, but real friends will still be your friend.
And if they look at you like you should quarantined for some kind of potentially fatal disease, then it's their loss.
Have you got non-JW friends? They'll be the ones to help you through the fading process.
Best wishes on your journey to freedom and a better life.
Wouldn't it be nice, when you meet the elders that first thing you would say is you have been meditating a lot and that you have decided to leave your privileges as MS, because ......... Then just thank them that they took time to meet you and you had this way possibility to express your decision.
Comment a ton the night they announce it to dissuade those from suspecting wrongdoing cause if you stay silent then you may get some starting to gossip
Hubby was in the same position as you, Kool Jo, and had that conversation with the CO and elder. Just be pleasant, non controversial, accepting of their decision ('I know I haven't been doing as much as I should - I'm burned out - I've been thinking of coming off for a while anyway - yes, I can always use this time to build up my spirituality/theocratic routine again and re-qualify in the future - thank you for your concern, thanks for the chat, bye' etc.) ...
... Then celebrate.
If the MS hasn't been dishonorably discharged, he'll get a 'thank you for all the hard work' when his 'deletion' (cracks me up, that word) is announced to the congo, and he'll still get to do mic detail which will show he hasn't done anything wrong.
If you look ashamed about it, others will pick up on it and think there's some shady little backstory to your removal. Hold your head high, be cheery, be your normal self and don't feel you have to prove anything to anyone.
KOOL JO- Congratulations ! Best decision you could make- stepping down. No scratch that, second best decision. The best decision will be in time when you finally stop attending meetings to escape the mind controlled indoctrination process. But I know it takes time when you have family still in. Hang in there , you're doin' good
Hello Kool Jo,
This will certainly help with fading and leaving. I would like to echo some of the above comments. Try and pre-empt them if you can. If not just go with it, smile, nod and go with the flow. If you are planning on a slow fade, then there are a couple of things that might help. Make sure you go to the meeting on the night that the announcement will be made, and as Lied2NoMore said, make sure you answer up a few times on the night. I did this when I stepped down and a sister said to me a month or so later 'when I saw you were there and answering up, I knew there was nothing wrong.' By 'nothing' she meant I was not in trouble or had done something wrong. People are much more undrstanding of someone 'needing a break'.
Keep us up to date!