I joined this site so I could answer this thread
I am the person you are talking about
I remember you messaging me on youtube and asking me about this
I dont see what is wrong with my hair. We are completely allowed to dye our hair. If I were to dye it pink or blue or some unnatural color, there would be a problem, but blonde is not a problem. In fact, I was born with very blond hair and had it that way most of my life.
My clothes....I dress modestly. I dont have low cut shirts and I dont wear really short skirts. The elders have never aproached me about my clothing. The sisters here dress this way. It may be different in Russia, but there are cultural differences and that is all. Like in some countries (possibly Russia) the brothers can have a beard, but here....they cant. Its not appropriate.
I have even made certain for years that my dress is okay by asking opinions. There is no issue there. If there was, I would have resolved it.
About the swearing. I have tourettes syndrome. There was even an article about that in an awake recently. Jehovah understands that its not my fault. He knows i hate those words. Can you imagine being me and being forced to utter those kinds of things? Especially around children? How I must feel? Shame...
I stopped going door to door after the swearing started. I would do witnessing by letters and talk about my illness and tell them about how there would be an end to sicknesses like mine and any other.
At the kingdom hall...everyone knows I have tourettes. If I make strange noises or tic or spasm they dont judge because they know what I have. If I start swearing I rush out of the hall and let it all out when im outside.
What would you have me do? Stay home? Not get spiritual nurishment because I have an uncontrollable syndrome? I deserve to stay strong spiritually and without the meetings I would fall. I already lost being able to go door to door...something I did since I was a baby being carried in my mothers arms...something I did as a small child when all I could do was ring the bell and I was really proud to do that...or later... offer a tract. Imagine losing that?
If I wasnt supposed to go to the meetings, the elders would have told me, but they didnt, because that simply doesnt make sense.
About using my tourettes to "gauge peoples reactions" Seriously? You want to decide for me what my intent was? I wanted to show people what its really like to live with this disorder. Most people get their knowledge of it from the offensive show "South Park" People are suffering with this disorder and they feel alone and those around them make them feel bad. It wasnt easy for me to show what it looks like to be this way. I look totally in madness. Im not sorry I posted those vids. When we swear with tourettes...its not really swearing because the words are empty. There is no meaning or viscious intent. Its just an utterance the body forces out of me. If you judge me for that...it says more about you than it does about me.
Youll notice in the vid that you linked that I repeated the word "Sorry "multiple times. That is because I felt bad about the cursing and said I was sorry...but I felt so bad that the tourettes forced me to repeat the word over and over.
In my earlier vids. I did drop the F bomb at least once without tourettes and I felt shamefully about it later. I vowed not to do that again. People make mistakes. This is certainly not the worst I could have made.
At the hall...we have talks about gossip. This thread was gossip....and honestly it was hurtful.