Its the most perculiar thing. I recall when i was in, i used to wonder how those disfellowshipped could live with themselves and thought that they must be the saddest and most depressed people on this earth.
How wrong I was. Now that im one of this disfellowshipped ones my life has improved dramaticaly and im happier than I ever was. I dont realy feel sad or bitter about it all either. But i do hope that my friends come to their senses. I have been dub snubbed a few times by some of them, but I just try to be pleasant and chuckle about it to myself, thinking how ridiculously childish it is.
Anyway, not only is my relationship with my boyfriend going from strength to strength, im finding that im enjoying bible study so much more these days. I also love discussing it with people who enjoy reading it, eg. my dad. Even one sister from my congregation has agreed to continue talking about the bible with me, despite the fact im disfellowshipped. I think its nice that someone cares and loves me no matter what.
Other than that, today I enroled on 2 university courses to study counselling and psychotherapy. I feel that after what i went through, I could be suited to help those who struggle with feelings of sadness and depression, ESPECIALY, those with a religious or supressed homosexual background. Im REALY excited about going back to university and im happy that im doing it for my benefit and for the benefit of others. I can imagine if I was still a JW, they'd be discouraging me from it right now and telling me to pioneer! LOL!
All in all, things are going fabulously and im happier than I have ever been! Its crazy how my life has completely changed around, and that leaving the WT organisation has improved my health. I recommend it to all of you. Thanks for your support over the months.