THINK VERY CAREFULLY ABOUT WHAT YOU ARE CONSIDERING
I know what you're feeling wondering if they are right. You only studied for a year. I became one @ 17 I'm now 33 it takes work to get them out of your system. I'm new to this journey. This site is full of ones who gave years or their whole life to that religion. We know the what if's are hard to shake.
No one should tell you what to do. The JW's are all about telling you what to do. Some cong are different. The one I just left still lovebomb the studies on the fence in hopes they'll step in line and get dunked. Other cong. we will be civil to your face @ a meeting but that's it.
If you're thinking about going back because you have a spiritual need or want to be a christian then there are other ways. i think it's in our makeup whether or not we're believers. Maybe it's part of the evolutionary cycle. There are those who have no need or desire for spiritual things, there are those of us who do, some are on the fence. You have to pick what's right for you. Atheist, Christian, Buddhist, etc.. The point is for you to find your bliss.
Many feel being a JW is their bliss I thought so. Then I realized my recent unhappines, depression, low self worth was due to their way of worship. To each his own. You're having issues emotionally worries me. The make up of this religion is not a good fit for your problems. The constant demands for an outward appearance feed the vicious cycle of low self worth & depression.
Please feel free to PM me if you need to talk