RedhorseWoman,
The Borg did not want you to feel free, why else would they require 5 meetings a week plus the peddling of watchtowers. The purpose of all of their activity is to keep your mind cluttered, so you don't see that there is a beautiful world out there to enjoy (in the present). Instead of focusing on this beautiful paradise later. Your current prequisite with the watchtower is to think of doom and gloom (armeggedon (sp), rising food costs, murder and mayhem, etc.)
Anyhow every go back to enjoying your nature and horses and everthing else that is beautiful
HAPPY TO BE FREE (ME)