It saddens me greatly to see all that has happened and to see my friends in this position. For me it’s a great loss but I hope that it will only be temporary. Please allow Jehovah’s discipline to mold you and you’re way of thinking. You’ve come so far, don’t give up!
I don’t know how you feel, but I want you to know that I love you no matter whatever happens.
This is a tough one for me because I've know this person for over 30 yrs. I know he believes that "I love you no matter whatever happens."
I'm not doubting his sincerity on this. I just don't know how a "friend" of over 30yrs can say that and not EVER again talk to me.
Tomorrow is the day that in many eyes, I'll be considered spiritually dead and lost in the world of Satan. Actualy worse, I'll be a tool of Satan!!!
I fortunately don't see it that way. I see it as a new lease on life. A way too start over, but this time with a real chance at it. Will it be difficult at first, yes, as I continue to love and be married to a very very hardcore Jw wife. I really don't know what the future will bring as far as her and I are concerned. Will she be able to continue to "wait on Jehovah" as regards to me returning to the fold? Or will I, with time, come to the conclusion that I'm only trying to prevent the inevitable, the fact that it will be virtually and almost impossible to have a stable healty marriage/family in this type of arrangement? As anyone who has been through this situation knows, it's neither fun or easy. Oh well, it is what it is. Thirty years of ones life scrubbed off just like that by these people, your "friends". What hurts more regarding this message of this elder friend, was that he's known for well over a week that I was being disfellowshipped for apostacy tomorrow. So instead of coming too see me or even calling me which he could have, being that he is an elder afterall, he decides that his last words to me be these few sentences in a simple email would suffice. Sad. Very sad indeed. Should I even reply? If so, I wouldn't even know where to start. Any suggestions?
Thanks for listening.