Loz - when I first registered I was pissed as hell! Not a day went by that I didn't want to blow up a kingdom hall! I got great advice and support and validation here. And they were right. The anger does subside and you'll feel a lot better. Part of our anger is that we were taught to suppress so much of ourselves. Anger is a natural reaction to oppression.
Don't worry. You're heading in the right direction. You'll start to laugh soon. Me and my husband were born ins. Sometimes we have ranting sessions that end up with us in stitches laughing.